“its like when you grow up and everything magic gets taken away from you. your told that Santa clause isn’t real, the tooth fairy doesn’t exist and happy endings are only in fairy tales.. and slowly, everything that made the world seem magical starts to disappear.. then you grow up and you realise the world is full of lies”—Holli Adams
“i guess i always wondered why my life was so fucked up, but i never questioned it. then one day i woke up and it all just made sence. i was broken before, but im slowly starting to fix myself and get back to the person i used to be. for all the people that stood by me through all the shit, thank you. you have no idea how much it means to me. and all the people who fucked off or made it worse? thank you even more, because now i can see that i didnt need you’s in my life at all, i just wish id realised sooner. anyway i guess what im trying to say is, iv’e ditched the drugs, iv’e stopped slutting about and im no longer obsessed with alcohol, and high five to myself for doing it. i dont regret any of my mistakes tho, because then i wouldnt be where i am now. everythings going to get better now i have direction, and its all thanks to him.”—holli adams
“if I’m being truthful, theres a time when i would have given anything for you to call me at 2 in the morning and tell me you wanted me back but i never thought it would happen then one night totally out of the blue, it did. if it had been any other night i would have been thrilled but for some reason you decided to phone on the first night i stayed at my new boyfriends and by this time i had realised i was better off without you. I’m sorry i had to turn you down, it broke my fucking heart all over again but lets be honest we’re no good together and I’m happier now than i have ever been before and although there was a time when i would have threw it all away for you, that time has past now and i aways said that one day when you looked back i wouldn’t be there waiting for you anymore.”—holli adams
“maybe you did care for me once. i remember that night we got chased by a bunch of thugs outside McDonald’s when we were heading back to your hotel, i was out of my face on some stupid drug just as i always used to be and i felt like i could take on the world. we were outnumbered and you knew better, you told me to run and I’m not sure why, but i did. you got pretty battered and i didn’t come back, i got some man to sort it out but you didn’t care, you said as long as i was okay it didn’t matter, maybe there was a small space for me in your heart once but you should know that there was never space for you in mines, don’t take it to heart, there wasn’t space for anybody back then.”—Holli Adams
We use to stay up all night talking,
loving, sharing, laughing.
We use to smile together walk together,
pushing, shoving, tripping one onother.
We use to hold each other,
roll around, tickle, and kiss.
We use to love each other every second of every day,
now you say you killed the old you to become someone new.